Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Uh oh...I saw my shadow

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come. Now all these things are from God, who reconciled us to Himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation,…2 Corinthians 5:17-18

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
 Isaiah 43:18-19
"See, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind. Isaiah 65:17
I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:26

So the last few months I've been on a new journey...I cant say it's been easy...but I will say it has been exactly what I needed. Of course it is, after all, I asked God to create in me a new heart & cleanse me of me...I knew it was gonna be a painful, difficult & unknown time. I can say this much, I am still currently on this journey, just currently learning to be still...which I know is one of the things He is teaching me. I have learned this on several occasions...I have also forgotten what I learned on several occasions.

I shared that I joined a Biggest Loser challenge a couple months ago. The challenge was actually completed on March 27th. I know that the challenge was to "lose" weight, for me it was also a time to "gain" a lot. Like learning that I was so lost in my thinking about losing weight. Also that I didn't hate working out as much as I thought I did?? The most important thing I learned during this time has to be that to stop the vicious cycle of losing & gaining, I had to learn that it's not about the depriving myself of things I like until I lose this weight, it's about not using food as a reward, to stuff feelings, or as a hobby...it's made for nourishment. I had to allow God to create in me a new heart about my nourishment.

I finally heard Him about the food & as He taught me about food...He taught me that to grow in my relationship with Him, I need to nourish my mind, heart & soul with His word. I've learned that I became a new person when I accepted Jesus as my Savior...but kept living as the old person. The same thing with me eating, I used to start a "diet" but didn't become the new person I wanted to be...I kept living as the "fat" person on a diet.

He's been whispering to me for a while about whether I am a "new person" or just learning a "new routine"...He told me that this is not a new routine, but this is a "new me" He's creating. A permanent change. So as He's been trimming away the "old me" He's been filling me with Him, creating a "new me" that He is making like Him. This change He's been working on inside, He is now making on the outside. He is so faithful not to leave me in the pit I had created for myself...

Are you still trying to change something about you, but not letting go of the "old you??" Do you think learning a "new routine" is going to help you become the "new you" God is asking you to become? Ask yourself these questions & then listen for God to whisper directions.