Sunday, January 17, 2016

Are you sharing "your" message, or "His"...

 As I shared in several of my posts God pretty much has to sit me down in front of the laptop to get me to share His whispers through this blog...that isn't me bragging, no that is actually me realizing that a simple "yes" is ALL He's asking for...He will do the work, I just have to make the choice to say a simple "yes" Today I opened up my Bible to get my notebook out of it, this card fell out....

God reached out and grabbed my attention with this simple card...I dont have any clue how long it's been in my Bible...I only know that it was attached to a whisper from my Faithful Poppa God today and so I said "yes"
Just as soon as I said "yes" He was faithful to fill my heart with a longing to know "why" this Verse? "what" does it have to do with this subject?? "how" can it reach out and grab others attention??? I began my search for His hidden TREASURE in different translations...I found these 2 grabbed me in the same way as the card...then I heard Poppa God whispers His "yes" to me...
Just as there are many parts to our bodies, so it is with Christ’s body. We are all parts of it, and it takes every one of us to make it complete, for we each have different work to do. So we belong to each other, and each needs all the others.
Romans 12:4-5 TLB

In this way we are like the various parts of a human body. Each part gets its meaning from the body as a whole, not the other way around. The body we’re talking about is Christ’s body of chosen people. Each of us finds our meaning and function as a part of his body. But as a chopped-off finger or cut-off toe we wouldn’t amount to much, would we? So since we find ourselves fashioned into all these excellently formed and marvelously functioning parts in Christ’s body, let’s just go ahead and be what we were made to be, without enviously or pridefully comparing ourselves with each other, or trying to be something we aren’t.
Romans 12:4-6 MSG

As I read and re-read this whisper of wisdom...I began to hear His whispers from the sermon yesterday..."You want control...You want to make everything your own...You dont want to work for it or wait for it...You just want it, NOW." You start out walking along with Me and having complete trust in Me...after a while when it gets hard, or repetative You veer off...onto your own path...or You start letting the praise of friends become what fulfills you, instead of giving the glory to Me, the One Who's moving these mountains, you start accepting the glory for "yourself." Then He led me blindly to THIS wisdom...

God didn’t send me out to collect a following for myself, but to preach the Message of what he has done, collecting a following for him. And he didn’t send me to do it with a lot of fancy rhetoric of my own, lest the powerful action at the center—Christ on the Cross—be trivialized into mere words.
1 Corinthians 1:17 MSG

Of course He knows this, so He gives me the choice. I can choose to share "His" message, or I can choose to share "my" message. God will work through me, if only I choose to say "yes" to Him working in me. He can still teach others through my life, whether I say "yes" to Him or "yes" just determines whether I am an example of what "not to do"...or I am an example of what "to do" me it's like my before and during/after pictures. The before is an example of where I say "yes" and  He starts my journey and the during/after pictures are the example of where He is taking me.

God will move mountains out of my way when I say "yes" to His plan. In the instant He knows I agree, He will begin His work. His mercy, comfort and peace begin...even as He walks me into the darkest places of my heart...I will be completely immersed in Him...The places I dont share with ANY other person...the places that hurt so badly... that I dont ever dare to look into them...the deepest darkest places that I have dumped the worst secrets...the ones I've been conditioned to believe since the MOMENT God brought me into this world that NO ONE would accept...THOSE dungeons that satan will use to hide out and wreak havoc and chaos continuously. ALL the while I'm choosing to believe the lies that I've been "conditioned" to accept as "ok"...the ones satan uses to keep guard of his dungeons...lies like "no one can see this part of can NEVER be free of this...they will NEVER accept you...Even God wont forget this one"... It's MY CHOICE to choose to believe satan and his lies...OR GOD AND HIS TRUTH...God WILL bring His LIGHT into ANY darkness...ANY kind of darkness and the darkness WILL become LIGHT...God's showing me that satan's lies become truths in my mind if I choose to live within the "conditioning" of this world...BUT if I even have a moment of light...God KNOWS my heart and THAT INSTANT...HE WILL MOVE THAT MOUNTAIN and I WILL walk RIGHT through the FLAME and NOT be even WARMED by it...

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.
Isaiah 43:2 NLT

The ONLY thing I have to do is choose WHO to believe...will I believe the lies that keep me in constant turmoil...the lies I've allowed to become truths in my broken mind? Will I choose to live deep in the sadness, jealousy, anger, bitterness and unforgiveness that satan has "conditioned" me to believe are all I am worthy of?? Will I choose to keep holding satan's hand??? Or will I choose to believe what God has promised me? Will I choose to look back and see God's Hands at work?? Will I choose to believe that EVEN in the MOST difficult and painful seasons I CAN have God's peace, joy, mercy, LOVE and most of all I have God's forgiveness??? Will I believe that my worth is in GOD? that He defines me?? Will I finally allow God to lift the "conditions" off Him???  Will I finally SURRENDER and give God all of me, not just what I think He will accept????

I think that when I decided to finally SURRENDER to God's calling in the very beginning...I expected my life to suddenly become "perfect" and when it became "harder"...the old me came up very quickly and very easily. I complained and moaned about why? where is God? when does this get easy? I remember being afraid to voice these complaints to God...of course I loudly voiced them to ANYONE who would listen around me...but I thought if I didnt say it to Him, He wouldnt know...I had to start somewhere, right? God DIDNT promise me that having a relationship with Him would make my life "perfect" my way...He promises me that it WILL get harder...this is taking me years to learn. I am still learning this, the HARD way.

The reality is that God knew this about me. He knew that I was going to be stubborn. He knew I was gonna have to learn EVERYTHING the hard way. That I would question each and every single reason. When the world tells me that I should just fall in line and be politically like everyone else...I just dont accept that. I will dig and find the answers. He knit me together, He put each and every part of me together before He made the world. He gave me every characteristic, defect purposely. Every single part of me was created to fit perfectly into my place in the body of be the vessel for Him to fill... He created in me, a unique, beautiful daughter of the MOST HIGH KING...He has been shaping me since He brought me into the world to be a light in this world. 

God uses my challenges to challenge those He places in my life. He will light someone else's path through the good and bad choices I make. If I choose to abide in Him while He walks me through a deep dark valley, even if I stumble He can work through both non believers and believers...He will build my faith and at the same time He will ignite or build the faith in those around me. 

As I trust God more, it shows in my life. The more I trust Him regardless of the circumstances I face, the more He reaches with His message. The more people He can love through me. Some times simply being still is all He wants me to do. These are probably some of my most challenging moments. I want to "fix" everything for those I love. I want to "save" them the pain that I had to learn from...God's message to me has been very plain that if I dont step back and take all my "conditions" off Him and give Him the space He needs to build their faith...they wont learn to rely on Him, they will still turn to me. Basically what He said to me yesterday is that I am stunting their faith with my "saving" them.

God is uncontrollable & uncontainable...He will outgrow ANY box I try to put Him in.